My experiences was fascinating. I was inspired by the capacity for holding space and being a container. I was amazed by your ability to put forth viable alternatives and during our consultations, including practical insights for resolving mundane problems in a creative way.
The Purpose & Origin 目的與緣起
The alchemy of life is the art of transforming and exalting suffering into joy. It’s turning trauma into expansion. We are all alchemists of life whether we are aware of it or not, and I started this career to share my journey and the tools which have assisted me through this process. My own suffering caused me to desire peace and happiness within myself and the collective consciousness. I realised my happiness is one with everyone else’s happiness. So here I am, offering my perspective to you, setting the intention of you finding what you need here. I hope every one of you will find your unique treasure here.
I was exploring a minor trigger this evening and came to this realisation that blew my mind. I’ve been a match to rejection trauma triggers in social situations constantly throughout my life, and recently it even showed up in one of Teal’s interviews.
I finished watching this controversial interview featuring Jordan Peterson, and my reactions to this interview were interesting and surprising to me.
This Ask Teal episode stirred up something interesting… The loudest pain (a different part) other than confusion is ‘I can’t be a man’. No matter how hard I try, I will never become a man. I will always be more vulnerable. The pain of our differences/deficiencies as females being taken advantage of. The pain of being the weaker one on the physical level. The pain of always feeling unsafe and hard in public space. The part compensating for the part wanting traditional gender roles is SO relatable. It’s canvassing how every woman feels!!!
I’ve been doing shadow work and parts work about parentification trauma recently, and here’s the story. I feel very sad after writing out the story, especially about the insecurity of physical abandonment. How sad is this. No wonder I relate to orphans and adoptees… And I now understand how deeply the enmeshment trauma affected me. I fought so hard not to be enmeshed.
What I found is surprising also unsurprising to me. It’s ‘self-centredness’. There’s a giant rift within me, the self that exists and exhibits her existence and the self that wants to get rid of herself and be invisible. The rift occurred because the subconscious message my family kept giving me when I was a child is ‘I don’t want you to exist’.